It seems as though I’ve lost myself again
Walking through the darkness of the day
I’m not sure how, I’m not sure when,
I didn’t know if I’ll ever find my way

The world has a different kind of glow
So visceral, savage, with sadness at it’s core 
And as I stare into the darkness I think I know
My eyes tear up again, feeling almost sore

My skin is wrapped to tightly around
A body shaped like madness in the night
With vengeance, I try to tear it to the ground
In hopes that through the pain I’ll win the fight

The winter sky, it taunts me
With it’s grey muted light
No sunshine here for me to see
Not through the day nor in the night.

I used to dream of better days
Ones where I could feel and smile
And know myself in every way
And maybe I could stay a while.

But here I sit alone with my own demon foes
Filing up my mind, heart and soul
With unforgiving anguish, pain and woe
With taunts and laughs taking their toll.

My body aches and shakes through the night
And well into the waking hours
My mind screams you are alone, you cannot fight
Despite the dozens trying to give me safety and cover

I do not know where I am going anymore
I thought I had a solid plan
I cannot find reasons to remain, I’ve lost the war
I’m no more than a broken man.

I used to think all broken things can be mended
Repaired back into a useful state
But I’m afraid such powers aren’t within me hosted
The time has come to simply accept my fate.

Should you awaken to a day and find
That I’m no longer with you here
Remember as you search for meaning in your mind
That no amount of crying can make me reappear

That’s ok though, really. It’s true
The world never needed me at all
And though my absence might be felt by a select few
In chilly months of fall

The world will keep on spinning
Never sensing any kind of loss
It really is amazing
How little human life can cost.